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`15 sept 88
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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

8:27 PM

Age

Today, as I was returning home from school, I met my Dad at the lift. While climbing up the flight of stairs that leads to the lift, my Dad missed a step, stumbled, and almost fell down the stairs. He smiled and told me "Aiyah, old already la." It didn't occur to me that my Dad tumbled because he was old and missed the step. And suddenly, I thought. "How old is Dad? 50? Or more?" I'm 18 already. Which means Dad is like, (34+18) yrs old. Which is 52 yrs old. I wouldn't say it's old, but he isn't all that young either.

And today, my Grams asked me a weird question. She haven't been coming to my house for a few days (she usually comes everyday) and she asked "When I didn't come did you miss me?" and I went "Ya, got." Kind of. And my Bro was asking "Why didn't you ask me?" to which my Grams replied "Aiyah, you sure won't one.Everytime also go out. I come you also go out, I never come you also go out..." And she started talking about "When you were young... I took care of you..." and stuff like that. And when she left my house, I said Bye like usual. She didn't reply. My Mum thought she had left. My Bro who was locking the door for her asked "Why are you crying?" My Grams didn't reply and walked away. It occured to me that my Grams had been acting weird recently (since last week). Either she is in a bad mood and grumbles, or she acts weird like today.

Maybe it's just old age. You know, just you living on healthily when you see your relatives, your friends passing away one by one. And perhaps, in the quietness of her own home, (my Gramps is away in Genting to gamble) she starts thinking. "What if I die one day? Will my family miss me?" For a woman who's been a housewife almost all her life, her family is the next most important thing to her. (she treasures her life alot ya know.) So, with nothing to do at home, she starts thinking a little too much. It's never bad to plan, yea, but well, just take things as they come along? I hardly think she can do that though. She's one who's always so prepared.

I hate seeing my Grams cry. In my 18 years of life, I've only seen her cried twice. Once when her best friend/neighbour died of cancer. Another time at my Great-grandma's (her mum-in-law) funeral 2 years ago. I'm kind of glad I didn't see it today. Perhaps it's me being selfish, I just wanna retain the image of a perfect Grams I have. One who makes popiah and spring rolls and chicken rice, and caned me when I was little. Who cooks for me ever since I recognise her, who always nag at me. Who seem that she never scared of anything; cockroaches or the dark. Well, perhaps... perhaps, it's just another part of her I never saw.

* will you catch me?

Movie

Went to watch Final Destination 3 with Elyse, HuiMin and Jasmine today. It was quite a nice movie, though the plot wasn't special, or I would say, typical. But the graphics made the movie worth it. 7 people die on the roller coaster, and the rest who died after that died in 7 different ways. In the plane incident, 7 people escaped death, only to die again after that. Is that number cursed or what?
Anyway, I was talking about the effects of the show. Was nice. The 1st way was worst. Burnt to death. Trapped in a tanning machine, skin burnt red, then brown, then caught fire and died like that, as if the tanning machine was destined to be ur coffin. Sad or what? At least having an arrow pierced through your body is a faster way of dying. A more beautiful way too. And yea, having nails punctured through your head isn't a great way either. Not when you're still alive even with the nails in ur head. Ewww....
The movie was gory, sadistic, bloody, morbit, etc, but it was after all, still quite nice.

End of entry.

* will you catch me?

Sunday, February 26, 2006

12:58 AM

I did 2 main things today!!

1) Did CIP with my classmates. Ended up asking my frens for help. Haha... Kinda slack. And I was late (like, as usual). We were kind of irritated by the people studying at Mac, cuz we all very tired but then can't find place to sit n drink ay Mac cuz too many ppl studying. Argh...

2) Went out with the PM gang!! Had a great time. We had steamboat, and Jabez was (as usual) super late. And the 1st thing he does? Talk to Yan Qing abt work. -.- Can't stand him sometimes, but well, tt's Jabez for u. We talked about the issue of gays and lesbians and perverts, of dating and of course, with Jac around, sex. See? I have weird friends.

Anyway, we talked about the issue at NYP. Jabez recieved the video. Jac and Chris were absolutely bored and kept scolding the people. Yan Xiang, Shuyi and I were absolutely disgusted.

And Jac, being Jac, talked about gays. Seems to be her favourite topic of discussion :P And she raised a very interesting question. She asked "If there is this guy who's serious about wooing you, but he's honest and said that he's a bi, wad would you do?" Quite an interesting. But the irony is, if he is serious about you, how can he be a bi la... Anyway, Shuyi, Jac and I thinks it's ok, juz as long as he's nt seeing someone else(a guy) atm. But right, there's always this worry. Like when we go out and ur bf tells you "Hey, that guy is cute." Would you be worried or what? Like of course? And when he says "hey, that girl is cute." Is he hinting something or what? Double worry, double stress. Haha...

Of course, with the PM gang, it's always lots of discussion, crap, and laughter. We sat down to chat at Mac, having ice-cream, fries, etc. My kind of fun I would say, a simple gathering where we have dinner and chat over lots of crap and laugh over the stupidest things.

Yup ppl... that's all. Thanks for the gathering people! :)

* will you catch me?

Thursday, February 23, 2006

3:52 PM

Hahahahahaha!!!!

The principals of many schools had a meeting in our campus today (not that we were involved, no we weren't. we can only host important meetings and hope to be noticed) Anyway, there was this meeting that kind of made me think where all so many years of education (and educating others) had gone.

As all students would know, there is a shortage of parking space in out school. Which means teachers have to park behind the PE block for this event so as to allow the visitors to park at the carpark near the main gate. And so they did. But some of the principals did something very silly. They parked as follows:

The cars are the orange boxes with the front of the car represented with the red line. see the way they park? To get out, every car, starting from the one nearest to the i-space, will have to reverse slowly. Which basically means, if you were stupid enough to park to the most left (nearest to the canteen), you were probably one of the first to come but last to leave!!

Hahaha.... isn't that interesting? The way they park doesn't allow then to move out easily. Makes us wonder what they're thinking huh?

* will you catch me?

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

3:42 PM

And I got a new blog song!! Yi yan wan nian by S.H.E !! Very nice!! Though abit sound like those gu(3) dai(4) song! Haha... (Turn on ur speakers, it's abit soft)

* will you catch me?

Happy Birthday Jac!! *jumps*

I got my school's year book today! Actually I kind of like it, because

1) got full colour!!
2) not like normal yrbks.

Y I say nt like normal yrbk? not juz cuz of the full colour of cuz. i feel tt the pictures put r special, like those cher's pic n class pic. unlike normal yr book, our yr book dun put the formal class photo with all the names in small print. It's like, the pictures are in small groups (nt tt i really like) but it's nt tt typical. i think shd put class photo la, but informal tt kind. nicer. and informal class photo got the feel of class spirit. then small group photo very cliquish.

and ong (my chem teacher) look very stupid in the photos!! hahahaha!! him in the sicence teacher's photo look very act!! cuz he take test-tube n pretend. xu lao shi oso!! xu lao shi hold brush like going to write caligraphy like tt!! and the english dept de... they hold harry potter book!! haha!!

and the ocip pics r very nice! (note: cuz i look nice in it =P) and all the pictures r from MingYing...and a big big photo of Faith teaching! And us eating the school food: (see below)

* will you catch me?

Thursday, February 16, 2006

9:58 PM

Congrats Nana!!

Nana won The One!!! =) *pops champange* too bad I wasn't there to hear her :(

Haven't been in school in 2 days. Actually wanted to go today de, but when I was reaching school, I juz threw up. Suddenly. So I took a cab home. Then I saw a doc, who gave mi 10001 types of medicine. (Almost all horrible tasting) Thankfully, the anti-biotic and gastric pills were small enough for mi to swalloq easily, unlike the headache pill (which looks very pretty but taste like crap). And some dark orange painkiller with a yellow pill that feels like powder in my mouth. :( yucks!

elyse's doc says she sounds like donald duck!! haha!! from woofie become duckie le! wahaha...

shall not blog anymore le. rest rest!! tml still muz go sch, cuz got pract. :(

* will you catch me?

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

2:48 PM

first and foremost....

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!!!

Urgh... i'm sick. It's not nice to be sick AND take gp test AND haf a sleepless night AND eat medicine.

And thanks shanana, shooting, yinghui, sweee and my classmates (lirong, bee, elain, jasmine, xingxiu) for v day gifts. and cheeki for his delivery service. (very much appreciated) (like real)

and last but not least, to kenny for sending me a nice SHE song!

today is still a nice day.

* will you catch me?

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

10:56 PM

Random tots...

Cui cui is sick today!! Poor thing. Xiang xiang sucks at cooking prrridge; Keke and KouKou are not much better either, so... sorry Kor!~ Make your own porridge! :P And Get well soon!

I saw shooting's tag. And I miss the cow song too!! we sang it during our bbq last yr, but shooting lost the recording (with her hp)...

I am cow, hear me moo
I weigh twice as much as you
And I look good on the barbecue!

Um... can't remember the rest of the song liaoz... haha.... tt's too bad!!

* will you catch me?

Today is Tuesday. I haf tuition + all 3 tutorials tml. And my camp is coming up. And tons of undone homework. I should be at my desk, diligently working on how to integrate cos x^2. What am I doing here? I need to destress once in a while!!! While I was testing out my pen (seriously, testing out), I wrote out a portion of lyrics I like: (encode to Unicode to read)

歌手：五月天 专辑：知足

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有
Adapted from mp3.baidu.com

I got all the chinese words correct!! But that is not the point. The point is, I like the lyrics!! My intepretation is this: there are some things in life that cannot be kept physically, like a smile. To let go may be the best way of keeping it with you forever. So meaningful rite? Song lyrics are so nice. Another set of lyrics I like is this:

歌手：s.h.e 专辑：不想长大

女孩慢慢长大却还是懵懂
那时的她还不懂
为什么大人们能抽空
为失恋喝杯酒
却没空看看星空

See? The little girl dun understand why the aldults like to do silly things like drinking after a breakup and not stop to admire the beautiful things that are always around us. It sounds so... how would you put it? Innocent I guess. The best word to use. Showing things from a little girl's point of view...

Anf it's reflection time!! I have 2 reflections for today:

1) I hate people to say...

"...., you know, ..... (blah blah) "
I would to tell you "No! I dun freaking know!! So stop saying that!!" I get irritated when people keep saying "you know" in the middle of a sentence. It breaks the chain of thoughts when you're concentrating on what the speaker is saying and he puts in a "you know" in the middle of the sentence. Like he excepts you to know what he's trying to say.

2) Ms Poh is very good!

I was talking to one of my juniors (doing KI project) about my OCIP trip. He asked me "What are some of the takeaways?" I might have asked myself / been asked this same question 10000 times before, but today I realised something I haven't realised. I was telling my junior "Ms Poh is quite demanding, in the sense that she makes things very diffuicult." I quoted the example of not letting us use Chinese in MingYing. Thinking back, I thought that it was actually good that she posed this restrictions on us. It makes us struggle, no doubt, with using English to communicate with people who've never touched English all their life. But it has also made us more persistant, and we did succeed.

And per-trip planning, she was always "Do you think....(blah blah)" or "Any better idea..." this and that. And make us edit our proposal 100001 times. And change our programme. All these had sort of bonded us as a team and on top of that, I realised that I've actually learnt that there is actually many different approaches to do things.

In Mingying, we shared a room. Before sleeping, she would never ask if I had prepared the enxt day's stuff. In the morning, she would never ask if the things needed are brought, because she wants us to be automatic. If we didn't bring, we'll just mess up our schedule, simple as that. I felt that because of her expectations, I have unconciously tried my bestest to do everything right. I went to the extent of pushing myself to the edge of breaking down, but I pulled through. Pulled throught the 5 hectic days of recee and programme before finally falling sick the day before we left the village.

I didn't think I would do that if it was the Eunice in sec school. I would probably heck care if everyone else did. But I didn't now.

I want to say a big Thank You to Ms Poh here, though she may never see this. Thanks you for letting me realise how different I can be.

* will you catch me?

Sunday, February 05, 2006

4:09 AM

Interesting...

~ TaiNan U guys are quite cute
~A bone patted my head and a dog shook my hand!

These happened in chingay.

Cheer by elyse:

"C!" *clap x3*
"O!" *clap x3*
"W!" *clap x3*
"COW!" *clap x3*
"C-O-W COW! MOO MOO MOO!"

* will you catch me?

"Chingay! Chingay! Parade of Dreams!"

Chingay today was quite hyper! Effects of the street party I suppose. Everyone was spraying water all over the place after we gathered back at the civic plaza. Like 'qing gong yan' like tt. I took pics with my frens!~ But dun haf the one we took lying on the road (cuz tt was using li zi's camera, not mine.) Aniway, Chingay rox!~ The weather was a bit of a wet blanket though, and literally. Cuz it was raining. Right before we went on ground. Damm sian. CheerRockers look stupid wearing ponchos lor. And the food scare. They said some of the food turn sour. So -_-"...

Me with my group 2.7 members: (from left)
Janet, Vanessa, Me, Chang Zhen

Me with Elyse and HuiMin after parade

Me with my group members on the road!!

After parade. huining's fren (extreme left) very high sia...

* will you catch me?

Saturday, February 04, 2006

12:00 PM

hmm... havent update for some time. anyway, been quite bz since after CNY. and predicted business will last till well aft next week.

1) Chingay

Yesterday was the Prewiew of Chingay 2006~ It was kinda fun, cheering and all. Best of all, Orchard Road is closed just for us!! (Ok, maybe not just for us. But we're still on the road.) wahaha... Actually the motivator job oso quite slack, cuz after the parade starts, we cannot stand up n cheer. So sit down and make some noise nia.

And super not fair la... cuz huimin's in Elyse's group~~ but nvm, my grp de ppl oso very nice de. haha... we quite high after the parade and took photos on the road. The high-est photo was when we lay on the road beside the arrow and took photo. Damm cool la... Like how many ppl get the chance to do that in Orchard Road lor. Super fun.

And I saw who's Tang~~ Haha... Apparently he oso seen Elyse around in Beatty before, which totally proves tt Cheeki is blind, since Labbs sees Elyse ard in Beatty oso. Ai, juz wear ur spects la. Stupid idiot. And I didn't know Tang was actually his surname -.-'

And toking to Cheeki is fun, cuz he's paranoid. Hahahahahahahahaha.... seriously. One of the times when he makes me laugh with his 'hey-i'm-serious!' conversations...

ok, i gotta rush to parade now. today's the actual thing. tata!~

* will you catch me?