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Tuesday, February 07, 2006

10:19 PM

Today is Tuesday. I haf tuition + all 3 tutorials tml. And my camp is coming up. And tons of undone homework. I should be at my desk, diligently working on how to integrate cos x^2. What am I doing here? I need to destress once in a while!!! While I was testing out my pen (seriously, testing out), I wrote out a portion of lyrics I like: (encode to Unicode to read)

歌手：五月天 专辑：知足

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有
Adapted from mp3.baidu.com

I got all the chinese words correct!! But that is not the point. The point is, I like the lyrics!! My intepretation is this: there are some things in life that cannot be kept physically, like a smile. To let go may be the best way of keeping it with you forever. So meaningful rite? Song lyrics are so nice. Another set of lyrics I like is this:

歌手：s.h.e 专辑：不想长大

女孩慢慢长大却还是懵懂
那时的她还不懂
为什么大人们能抽空
为失恋喝杯酒
却没空看看星空

See? The little girl dun understand why the aldults like to do silly things like drinking after a breakup and not stop to admire the beautiful things that are always around us. It sounds so... how would you put it? Innocent I guess. The best word to use. Showing things from a little girl's point of view...

Anf it's reflection time!! I have 2 reflections for today:

1) I hate people to say...

"...., you know, ..... (blah blah) "
I would to tell you "No! I dun freaking know!! So stop saying that!!" I get irritated when people keep saying "you know" in the middle of a sentence. It breaks the chain of thoughts when you're concentrating on what the speaker is saying and he puts in a "you know" in the middle of the sentence. Like he excepts you to know what he's trying to say.

2) Ms Poh is very good!

I was talking to one of my juniors (doing KI project) about my OCIP trip. He asked me "What are some of the takeaways?" I might have asked myself / been asked this same question 10000 times before, but today I realised something I haven't realised. I was telling my junior "Ms Poh is quite demanding, in the sense that she makes things very diffuicult." I quoted the example of not letting us use Chinese in MingYing. Thinking back, I thought that it was actually good that she posed this restrictions on us. It makes us struggle, no doubt, with using English to communicate with people who've never touched English all their life. But it has also made us more persistant, and we did succeed.

And per-trip planning, she was always "Do you think....(blah blah)" or "Any better idea..." this and that. And make us edit our proposal 100001 times. And change our programme. All these had sort of bonded us as a team and on top of that, I realised that I've actually learnt that there is actually many different approaches to do things.

In Mingying, we shared a room. Before sleeping, she would never ask if I had prepared the enxt day's stuff. In the morning, she would never ask if the things needed are brought, because she wants us to be automatic. If we didn't bring, we'll just mess up our schedule, simple as that. I felt that because of her expectations, I have unconciously tried my bestest to do everything right. I went to the extent of pushing myself to the edge of breaking down, but I pulled through. Pulled throught the 5 hectic days of recee and programme before finally falling sick the day before we left the village.

I didn't think I would do that if it was the Eunice in sec school. I would probably heck care if everyone else did. But I didn't now.

I want to say a big Thank You to Ms Poh here, though she may never see this. Thanks you for letting me realise how different I can be.

* will you catch me?